I didn’t like it much when the preacher said faith
is “not” a feeling.
Gee, I wish it was. I like feelings. I am a touchy feely person.
I love getting up early in the morning and feeling the warm carpet beneath my feet. I love the way warm tea feels as it slides down my throat. I have a jacket I just purchased, not at all based on how it looks but 100% how it feels. My son said, “it is half alpaca, half lama and 100% polyester, and exactly the way all jackets should ever feel, Amen. I believe this jacket will be in heaven.”
I was not at all opposed to shutting off the car
when the preacher was talking what faith is not. I struggle enough with what faith is, much
less what it isn’t.
I ran into my appointment. I waited for a good long while in the
lobby. I was to see a client, one I hadn’t seen for over a year. It suddenly occurred to me that I had no
memory of what the client looked like.
This has happened before. I stand
there, hoping and praying my client appears with a hand extended and even
better, saying my name. It has happened when he or she comes out in an
entourage and I have to gamble who it is I know in the group. I stink at this.
The client arrived, thankfully solo. We did our tour, looking at the business of the day and then arrived back in the office. We said our pleasantries and then out of the corner of my eye I spotted a breathtaking photo. The memories came back. The child is a photographer. I revisited the same pleasant conversation I had had a dozen months before.
The client brightened. We arrived at a sweet spot.
Out of the desk came a large book, a Christmas gift
from the talented daughter photographer.
He held it and opened it with relish.
Every page another breathtaking photo and
interwoven, scripture.
I was overwhelmed and speechless. I read each scripture quickly not wanting to
take too much time. I stopped at a
favorite and said, “do you keep it in your desk for bad days?” On a bad day, I was sure this is exactly what
I would want to be looking at.
Faith is not a feeling, but when you share it, there
is nothing like it.
I could not have picked my client out of a crowd,
yet there is this crazy something we share, faith.
Hebrews tells us, faith is the “confidence in what we hope and the assurance of what we do not see.” It is knowing under the cover of what we cannot see and do not recognize that God is supremely present, He is supremely good and He is unquestionably powerful. Able to do all things, in all places for all that love and believe in the power of His redemption according to His will.
Hebrews tells us, faith is the “confidence in what we hope and the assurance of what we do not see.” It is knowing under the cover of what we cannot see and do not recognize that God is supremely present, He is supremely good and He is unquestionably powerful. Able to do all things, in all places for all that love and believe in the power of His redemption according to His will.
I don’t understand this thing called grace. I can’t describe it. It is this crazy something that feels too
good to be true, yet it has truth stamped all over it. So I wonder when I wake in the morning and attempt
to order my day, does He actually see my face, or is he looking at the photos
of the day before and the pictures of the events to come writing His name on
it, hoping I will get a glimpse of the glory.
You see I stop too quickly. I take on the burdens of the day as if they
were mine to carry. I plug in the
calendar the things of tomorrow as if I am guaranteed those moments. He on the other hand says we must learn to number
our days so we can see Him in the here and in the now; so that we will recognize Him in forever.
My little girl up early at the breakfast table
screams and runs for the dining room. I
have no time for this 11-year old drama so I put my tea cup away and head for
the stairs. Twenty-two minutes to dress
and ready the kindergartner.
She screams again and insists, “you don’t want to
miss this!!”
Five deer have found their way to my backyard. The little girl grabs my camera. Right now, beauty. Right now, grace. Right now, the world stands still and we
watch His creation without thought of schedule.
Oh for every moment to be like this. For every thought to be captive to His grace and His goodness. For every frame of my life to be scripted with His hand on the pen.
I get it. Faith is not a feeling it is firm, it is foundational, it is for now and forever. It is what makes the worst bearable and the best divine.
By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God’s
command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible. Hebrews 11:3
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