Packing up old… creates new memories, or perhaps they are
brushed off, relived memories framed with an older mind, a more tender heart
and hopefully a more compassionate, reflective soul.
From a shelf falls an old tattered
piece of paper. On the top written the
word BABY. Underneath my schedule. Little boxes checked for diapering and
feeding and reading. Not for my babies,
but for my dolls. It is as clear to me
as my own name. I wrote this when I was
6-years old. The paper shows the wear.
At age 6, perhaps at 60, I continue
to seek boxes. Boxes to check. Boxes to contain. Boxes where I live and boxes where I find my
comfort. Coloring out of the lines is not in
my vocabulary, neither is mixing play dough colors or going rogue.
I love control. I love a plan. I live for lists. I find purpose in completion. I am seeing God finds purpose in commitment. Committing to Him is a whole lot like
going rogue.
It is living life without the promise
of success. It is invisible return of
the intangible reward. It is seeing what is unseen not with
the eyes but with the heart. It is seeking what pleases the
Father, the acceptance of joy over happiness It is the release of control for the embrace
of extraordinary.
What should gives way
to what can be. What has been gives way to
redemption. What comes invites beauty. It is living life not for
accomplishment or acknowledgment.
It is
the seeking to find. To truly see the
Father work in the unlikeliest of circumstance.
Suddenly what was perceived as failure reveals peace and what was surely
suffering is rimmed in joy.
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